Something is broken inside. You’re not the same person anymore. You’re not the sane person anymore. You’ve been sinking in quick sand on a daily. Hear the rhythm of the sand as it sucks you in. Some days you want to plan an escape, the daily convulsions have let go of you. Some days, you slightly hope it does suck you in. You’re not you, so why does it matter? In fact, nothing matters at all.
You badly want to know if things are ever going to be the same again. If your smile is going to light up the world again. If you’ll ever derive meaning and happiness from life’s events again. You’re wondering if you’re meant to be you again. Have good things happen to you too. Wish for good things and aspire to something. You badly want to know if that will ever be you….again.